Can I consider myself a writer if I am just someone who wants to write? Is being a proficient academic writer and an avid reader evidence that I am someone itching to write or am I just romanticizing my love of literature into a career path that would ultimately diminish my only real hobby? For years now I have been trying to puzzle out an answer to the question: how do I know what I want to do? People constantly tell me to just “try a bunch of things out” but they never actually explain how you are supposed to dip your toe into the various industries you might be interested in. My college degrees are not steeped in linguistics, literature, and writing (psych major and gender studies minor here) so what do I do now if I think I might want to write? Am I supposed to take a gamble and pursue a masters in a ‘maybe’ or do I continue exploring paths directly related to my studies. It is hard to be a decisive person when everything interests me. I constantly feel unsatiable curiosity and find myself careening down different rabbit holes and niches, only to move on to another fixation the next week. I am overflowing with the motivation to start and severely lacking the focus to finish. I know people love Sylvia Plath’s fig tree analogy but honestly, I have trouble even thinking about it because I’m terrified that right now, I am sitting under my own fig tree unable to choose while desperately wanting a bite of each.